Shame Spiral

I was going to focus on other things today but it's been a morning. Steve offered to drive me to the bus this morning because "Dad is tired". I took him up on it because I figured he wanted an excuse to grab some food (false he had food) and I was feeling lazy. We were almost all the way to the bus when he revealed that he was super tired and Franz had asked him to drive me. Very weird because I have been walking. Though maybe what he said was, " if your mom needs a ride, can you drive her?" IDK. Anyway, on the way back home, he was pulled over by a cop. He doesn't know why but was told to expect something in the mail. So now I feel like shit. I should have told him I didn't need a ride. Fuck. And I don't even know why?!?!? Ugh.

Also these pants have a big stain. It's probably paint but got them 6 years ago at a thrift store so in the trash they go tonight.

I did lose weight last week though so that's something.

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